Hey loves! I’m not exactly sure how to start off this post but I really want to be real not only for my readers (because being authentic is always good) but for myself too, because I know I’ll get out of this little rut eventually and I want to look back on this post, knowing that I persevered. This year has been HARD. I can feel my shoulders just tensing up as I say that, but please do not mistake that with the fact that good things have happened this year too. Earlier in the summer, I went to Stockholm, probably one of my favorite places in the world and has the most sentimental meaning to me. I met up with old friends and made new friends! I got to see my best friend, who a 110 percent is my rock! I’m not ready to go into detail and explain what exactly it is that has made this year so hard for me but I will tell you that the biggest thing I have dealt with is STRESS. A little backstory, I suffer from anxiety and that has been going on for the past 5 years or so and anxiety SUCKS, but of late ( perhaps the past 3 months or so) I’ve been dealing with Acute stress (which combined with anxiety isn’t all that good) which you can find the definition of it here . I didn’t know how intense it got until, my skin (which already has its issues) got so bad and I would wake up looking so pale some mornings, some of my hair began to fall out and my sleep was off the charts. It took a lot of therapy sessions and a lot of meditation to start to feel a little better and since my hair hasn’t fallen out but my skin will act up every now and then when I’m stressed. To add onto that when I am stressed, even if it’s over the smallest thing, I feel like I could literally pass out. I haven’t felt like this for a while, and I’ve gotten so many questions from you all asking how come I haven’t posted in the longest while, but it’s been because this is a lot to deal with so I just have to take things a step at a time. As much as I also am worried about my health, I always keep my readers at the back of my mind, so this is just to let you know that when I do take those really long breaks , it’s not on you, it’s simply because I need a little bit of a time out.
Hope you all can understand.