MEMORIES

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Photos of Cornelia, Steffy and I from 4 and a half years ago!

I know I talk about my best friend Cornelia a lot haha, perhaps that’s because we’ve been best friends for like 12 years and she’s a literal sister to me so I just blab about her every now and then. So much change can happen in 4 years oh my God, like now I don’t think I could ever wear those hooker nails (because come on look at the length of those nails) , I’m so much into shorter nails now and thank GOD the braces came off! That trip to Victoria Falls was so much fun especially cause I hadn’t seen my best friend for like 3 years before that, she traveled all the way to Zimbabwe for me   I’ve been feeling so sick today and not in the sense that I have a cold or anything like that, my mind is just all over the place and that’s having a physical toll on me , I’m just having one of those days where I feel like I’m not doing enough and I’m not necessarily liking what I see, not everything is always perfect and for the first time I’m sharing that. Gonna head out of the door soon and maybe get a green juice or something , but aside from that good news, I finally filmed a vlog which will go up on my youtube channel hopefully by tonight! So weird to use a camera just to follow me around , oh well I’ll get used to it.

I’ll catch you guys later!

Kisses,

Petronella

STOCKHOLM CITY/ BACK TO BLOGGING

Hey guys! It’s been a little over a month since I’ve been on here! Wow, I’ve truly missed writing and sharing my journey of life with you guys! I know July ends today and I wanted to say that before the month is over my blog turned 1 at the start of the month which was super exciting! I wanted to write a post dedicated to that but unfortunately or rather fortunately I was partying with my best friend Cornelia on her last day in Stockholm before she headed to New York city! I’m now back in the super cold Perth, and I can say that the only time I enjoy winter is when there’s snow involved and sadly it does not snow in Australia. I guess I felt very mixed feelings about coming back and maybe I can talk about that a little later , but for now I am so incredibly grateful for my trip to Stockholm even with all the initial complications , it all worked out in the end. A lot of people always ask how come I’m in love with Sweden so much haha! Well I lived there for 5 years and I think the “crucial” years in my life were spent there, so I guess that’s really the place where I kind of started to figure out who I am, who I want grow into, what I like… Not to mention I have so many close friends and family who lived there ( or well some still live in Stockholm) , in my last posts , I talked about kind of hitting a wall, feeling really empty at some point and trying to recover from that, I think going away to a place I love so much made me discover so many things about my life that I want to change and about myself. I guess if you’re stuck in the same feeling, take a road trip over a weekend , go somewhere you feel loved or even go somewhere where you coincide with the energy!  Alright enough blab, I’m happy to be back , document more about my life and the things I love ( which will still include fashion but not so heavy on the buy this or only have pictures of my outfits) , perhaps even tell you about how the parsons and teen vogue fashion course went, I’m gonna be done soon! Here are all my favorite photos from my time in Stockholm ( a lot are with Cornelia #sorrynotsorry ), can’t wait to go back there!

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WHERE HAVE I BEEN?

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A couple of photos from the past few weeks.  Letting you all know I still look the same haha.

Wow , it’s been a month since I posted on here and boy do I miss it. This post will be super lengthy (well not super lengthy but long enough for you to grab your favorite drink or snack and just read) . In my last post ” bad day” , I talked about kind of over exhausting myself , which was not fun, I needed a break from everyone and everything so I took a hiatus on my blog. My first year of university was coming to an end and I had to focus on final assessments, plans for the summer ( Australian winter) and plans for my second year not just academically but also personally. It’s almost going to be year since I started up this website and as much as there are over 1000 fashion and lifestyle blogs, I promise to always be as authentic as I can be and let you know if I’m having a shitty day or rather a shitty week.  Since my last post, I contemplated on a lot, a lot of things that I’ve wanted and a lot of things I’ve wanted to do and so because I was so exhausted , I was also very emotional because I am someone who likes to be in control, and when I’m not , I don’t always handle it well. I know I’ve talked about this in the past but I really did feel like my blog wasn’t doing as much of a good job as I hoped, fashion is much more than showing off what you just bought on asos or taking outfit photos because as much as that is content for other blogs, that will not be THE ONLY CONTENT ON MY BLOG. I think for anyone who is reading this and has a blog or will start a blog , compare yourself but only to a certain extent. Compare your reach to a peer, how can you improve the interaction between you and your readers but do not compare the content you want to create and the content everyone else has. Having said that, I won’t drag out and explain everything else that was going on and how I achieved that because time is sometimes the best cure and also there is no need to go back and revisit problems that held me back. Finally, I am back, and more liberal to post whatever I want, fashion , lifestyle, or just discussion based. If you guys follow me on twitter or instagram, you’d have seen a few sneak peeks for where I’m travelling to next, and I am so excited for this trip and finally getting to see my best friend! I’ll give you more details right when I’m about to leave! ALSO MORE YOUTUBE VIDSS COMING YOUR WAY!

As always let me know how you are doing and what you would love to see on my blog!

Kisses,

Petronella

BAD DAY

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My cures on a bad day, or a bad week. 

Hey loves! WARNING THIS IS GOING TO BE A LONG POST. I had a completely different post that was supposed to go up today (I usually plan and pre-write my posts for the month) but I love being honest with you guys and so I have to tell you that I decided to put this post up instead because it’s coming straight from the heart and bad days are never scheduled. Oh and feel free to listen to this throwback song of David Powter’s Bad Day.On my blog I love being my true authentic self with you guys and it’s so reassuring when I get messages from you all and you tell me how you might have been struggling with the same thing I was or you can relate to a particular thing I’m going through. A lot and I mean a lot has happened over the past week and a half and I quickly found myself exhausted and emotionally drained. I love being productive and just constantly “going”, so really just keeping myself busy. I had my spring break probably two weeks ago, and it was so much fun, I met some amazing people, some even more attractive ones haha, and I had so much fun with my friends. I was partying and living it up and it felt good because I’m not one to go out to a bar or club every weekend, I like to do comfortable things over the weekend like go out for dinner , go to a friends house, stay home and snuggle up to some tea and watch a movie etc. So this felt like a well deserved break. Somehow this break seemed to end the worst way possible by me , strangely, out of the blue getting sick. None of my friends were sick, I didn’t have any physical interactions with anyone sick so till now I’m not sure how the two and a half days of me feeling really crappy happened. As soon as I got better,  the VERY NEXT DAY, I planned to hang out with my friends and we were later going to go to a bar which gives students a $50 voucher on drinks for the whole night , and I got my own voucher. I have no idea why this seemed like a good idea to me but we had a few pre-drinks at my friends place and were set to go, it was almost 11 pm when we decided to go  and didn’t want to pay $40 for an uber so we stayed home. I woke up the next day feeling really crappy and just like I really did not want to be around anybody, I still kind of don’t. The day after that ( last Friday) I packed up my stuff and headed out to my friend Zéwie’s house for a “weekend type getaway” , I had so much fun, and she gave me exactly what I needed, a lot of sleep and a chance to relax and not feel so incredibly overwhelmed. That’s when I thought, “Oh I’ve got my shit together now , everything’s gonna go back to normal”. I got home on Sunday, cleared up my room and the apartment , and then began to do my “winter cleaning”, cleaned out my whole closet with summer attire, and started putting in my knitwear and chunky comfortable socks oh and I watched Estée  on youtube’s video about being organized , which you can find here . I was sooo glad! I finally felt like hells yes , I’ve got my shit together. Then Monday came around, and there was so much to be done I slept at 5 am , and felt overwhelmed with emotions (meaning my mind wasn’t actually at rest but constantly thinking) only to wake up and have a full day of classes, still feeling overwhelmed, but now I feel behind and just insecure, feeling like something is wrong with me and contemplating the moves I’m making , the person I want to be and the person I want to be with. I woke up today and it was like I was drowned in emptiness, literally, I woke up and the first thing I said was “What to do when you’re feeling empty and got loads of responses, some helpful, some funny, some besides the point. It’s almost like it only went downhill from there. Although I woke up and had already established I wasn’t having a good day, unlike not doing anything about it. I decided to do things that will make me feel better about myself and not about my day because it’s me that’s feeling shitty, it’s not affecting anybody else. After my cousin left from visiting me earlier today, I took a nap because I’ve been exhausted this week and my body needed to rest. I then woke up and drank half a jug of cold water because I was dehydrated and I love cold water. I then got some fruits to eat and hoped into the shower and washed my hair , shaved , did everything necessary for me to feel like my true self again . I then got out, took out my face mask by lush cosmetics which you can find here , and decided to pamper myself, my skin needed it. I then sat in front of my computer, finalizing plans for the summer, well Australia’s winter ( which I will tell you about soon) and online shopped, because I love shopping and it’s been a while since I splurged ( last time I shopped was two weeks ago, new record) a little bit.  I then headed to my kitchen and made myself a “green juice” which was basically spinach, apples, strawberries and some water, I love this stuff and I have it everyday. Now because I took care of myself I felt better already but now, I needed to feel productive and intellectual again, so I grabbed my favourite magazine Vogue , this month’s Mario Testino issue and the book I’m currently reading ” #GIRLBOSS and focused on that for a while. I feel slightly better now and I know everything will be better, it’s just a bad day (well a bad fucking week) not a bad life. I think I need to put everything into perspective, my goals, my life, my current situations and perhaps my future ones. I think the past week I’ve gone through so many things at the same time and the exact same emotions came out of it , unhappy, disappointed, worthless. The rest of this week I have to work on that. Have you been off the wagon as well? If so, let me know what you’ve been doing to help you and I could take a few tips.

Hope you appreciate all the honesty.

Kisses,

Petronella